make your future

Via

I listened to the sound of the waves crashing upon the shore, beating perfectly on the rocks and piles of drift wood covering the beach.
The fire glow danced against the grey sky, casting shadows with every move I made.
I hummed a soft tune, as I closed my eyes and smiled. Springing up from my seat in the sand, I just stood there, letting myself take it all in. This was the perfect moment.
This was the minute I could be me. I slowly breathed in and forced it out. Every time I failed, or messed up.
All those moments that I gave up, the days that I barley made it through, I let it go.
Me, myself, and I was going to enjoy the time I had right now. I refused to hold on to the past. Because I, was determined to make my future.

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Hello :) People of the world. I have been posting a lot lately.. ( note my sarcasm? ) Ya, sorry about that. I guess I took an unexpected break.. I am back now though! Hopefully. 

*gives Kaitlyn a hug* "Thanks for reminding me to post!"

Xxx. Kayla

Check out mah Pinterest >>>> Here.

Try and see the best

I often find myself surrounded by my own little world, building up ideas to shield me from the truth, getting my self ready for whats to come. Sometimes I could talk to myself for hours; rehearsing line after line, to prepare the words I say. I try to save myself from disappointment and failure. But after I have shed my tears, spent nights awake, and vented out my heart; I finally come to the realization that life happens. No matter what I do to protect myself, people will still push me down. I can't control what happens, and that's how it is.

My friend kinda told me that. She said that we will always disappoint people, and that's life. When she said that I just replied, well life sucks. Which is true, because we will always disappoint people. 

Something that I hate doing. If I feel like I hurt someone, let them down, or disappointed them. I will lie awake in bed, not letting sleep over take me. I go over that moment in my head, until I have perfected it.

Unfortunately, I will probably always disappoint people. The important thing is for me to let it go, for me not to spend hours correcting my mistake. Life is life. You can't always be ready for it, you can't fix the past, you can't control it. Things will happen whether you like it or not. You just have to find the strength to make it through. You don't have to be happy and joyful, but you should try and see the beautiful things in life.

Because through the clouds, through the rain, there is a rainbow.

“Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.” 

― Allen Saunders

“Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late. You don't have to like it... it's just easier if you do.” 

 ― Byron Katie

Stay beautifully seeing the best in life.

xoxo,

Kayla

Super hero

I don't have a power or any super plan.

I can't fight off villains in hopes to hold your hand.

But I would try, to keep your head held high.

To help you understand.

That what ever comes this way, I'll be there by your side.

I don't own a light saber, or a super cool machine.

I don't have a Darth Vader to say "You don't know what I've seen."

But I would cross a bunch of galaxies, with you, in my dreams

Just to see you smile, 'cause for you I would do anything.

And I want you to know.

That I would fight off bad guys, if it came to that.

I would spread my wings and fly, to the moon and back, if I could.

Just to let you know.
 That for you I'd be a super hero.

//You may be no one special, but to someone your their superhero.//

 I know this poem song thingy is cheesy.. And the picture has nothing to do with the post, but these words kinda mean something to me. Like my love for super hero's and star wars.. *Cough cough*  And the fact that, even though I am no one special, maybe I could be a hero. :) Because there is always someone who needs a 'hero' to help them, so why don't you be that person and become a 'hero' to somebody. :)

Stay beautifully being somebodies super hero.

xoxo,

Kayla

this is to october

This is to October, were leaving September behind.

To a hope that this month will be better than the last.

And a longing in our hearts for the days that will pass.

This is to the cooler months, for the wind the rain and shine.

A love for the Autumn leaves.

And the cool gentle fall breeze.

This is for the laughs we will have.

The tears that will come our way.

The times that we feel like we are on top of the world.

And we couldn't have a better day.

This is for memory's and fires aglow.

For the wishing and longing for the white kiss of snow.

This is for knowing that we have a month.

To continue to laugh and continue to love.

To say that I love the Autumn, is an understatement. Because the fall is my favorite season, apart from winter that is. 

You can pull on your sweaters and boots, and just walk outside with the cool fall air. That to me, is basically perfect.

Am I the only one that will go out of my way to crunch leaves that haven't been stepped on. Yup, I do that a lot. I am just walking down the road and I see a perfect orange leaf. Next thing you know I am 'randomly' going to the side and taking special care to crunch that leaf. I have no self control in that situation.

Stay waiting for leaves to fall.

xoxo,

Kayla

Bear hats, skipping, and laughter.

x. I tried on a bear hat.

xx. My sister decided to try it on and rock it.

xxx. My friend said it looked like I was singing.. When I am super happy, I do random poses. 

xxxx. When they put the huge over sized jacket on Caitlin, I was laughing so hard. But when they put the raccoon hat on her as well.. It was officially marked the best day evahh.

xxxxx. I love that 'jacket' on her.

xxxxxx. My bestest, most epic friend and me. I honestly love that picture.

xxxxxxx. We were skipping down the road.. Singing "We are off to see the Wizard. The wonderful Wizard of Oz!" Because we rock like that.

xxxxxxxx. Another picture of our epicness.

xxxxxxxxx. That little girl, is the cutest! Kaylie and I held her for most of the Field trip.

xxxxxxxxxx. I don't know why I have that picture on here.. I just like it.. 

xxxxxxxxxxx. This is a perfect description of my day.

 I can honestly say. That was the best day ever. We played old colonial games, listened to people talk. For hours, about the history of Tennessee. But honestly, we had a lot of fun with it. We wore bear hats, we skipped, and we laughed.

Stay beautifully epic.

xoxo,

Kayla

you were blessed.

I understand.

How it feels to wonder why.

That things fall down and wreck our life

Burying us under, the thoughts of our own mind.

But somehow through god, we learn to survive.

I know that things are caving in, but you will soon realize.

That through these trials.

You learned how to laugh and how to cry.

That you figured out the wrong from the right.

And that now you, realize.

That you had a beautiful life.

There was the people that held your hand.

That helped you through the trials, that you didn't understand.

You made it through.

And now you know its true.

That through every situation, no matter the pain.

You were blessed, like a rainbow after rain.

And when you felt like giving up, cause the road got tough.

There was a hand that helped you through the days that were rough.

Through every situation try and stay strong.

Because one day you will look back and see how you were blessed.

Stay beautifully going through life.

xoxo,

Kayla

straightening up

There are many things that have been messed up.

A thousand dreams dumped from our cup.

And were finally getting back on our feet.

And were finally trying to believe.

That things are straightening up.

The winds passed through our peaceful hours.

They turned them from sweet to sour.

And we are just getting over the after taste.

We have finally got back in the race.

Things are straightening up.

No matter the mess that we've made.
We've found a way to not be afraid.

If we trust.
And believe.
In the one who holds our hand.
We can achieve.
Cause things are straightening up.

When ever we feel like giving up, if we just pray to the one above.

Things will straighten up.

Stay beautifully praying.

xoxo,

Kayla

In which you listen to me ramble. 1?

Last night I took a walk.

That might not be so special.. But...............................Wait for it......................

THERE WERE LEAVES ON THE GROUND.

And it was slightly chilly. Do you know how happy that makes me feel? *Grabs tissue* 

It makes a young heart glad. *Sniffles, sniffles.* 

Yup. So I am officially re-organizing my room! Kind of for fall weather.. 

Its time to BUST out my fuzzy blankets and slippers!

The only part I don't really like about fall is..

The water park closed Monday.. Excuse me while I cry a mountain of tears..

Anyways... We went on Monday and my friend and I literally WORE THOSE SLIDES OUT!

Because we are awesome like that. *Snaps fingers and shakes head.*

The depressing part was when they blew the whistle.. And it was the last time to go down the slide.

So, I decided to rock that slide! I went down surfer style, while singing "We are the champions." at the top of my lungs.. When I got off the slide I was like.

"Call me a carpenter, cause I just NAILED IT!" *Hits chest in victory.*

Sooo... ya.

Here is the funny picture of this ramble.

No words for this post. -.-

Stay absolutely adorkable.

xoxo,

Kayla

my thoughts are so loud

My thoughts are so loud, I cant hear the world.

Some times I feel like my thoughts are so loud, that they seem to cloud out the world.

My thoughts are so loud they block out the noise.

They seem to terrorize every choice.

They bring me deeper in thought, but sometimes to places I ought not to go.

Its hard when you feel like your spinning.

Your lost in a world of your own.

Even if your in a room full of people, you sometimes feel alone.

To cover my ears and scream to the world.

To let them know.

I will control how my thoughts go.

Sometimes I feel like I am lost in the world of my thoughts.

And sometimes that's the most dangerous place to be.

Stay beautifully in control of your thoughts.

xoxo,

Kayla

Dear me,

Dear me,

 In a couple of years will I be tall.

 Will I have learned how to live with out being afraid to fall.

 Will I know how to love, wanting nothing in return.

 Will I bring joy and peace to the world.

Will I have known how to fight through the hard times.

Will I have been taught how to spread my wings and fly.

Soar above the mountains tops so high.

Will I have realized that I can be strong.

If you have faith and hold on.

I probably wont have found the cure to cancer.

I probably wont have every answer.

But will I understand, why things have been the way they were.

Why life went by in such a blur.

Dear me,

Please try to live happy and free.

Please understand that every body's going through something hard.

That I should always give a hand and stand guard.

At the door way to my heart.

Please always realize, that you should give a smile.

Cause you never know when you will have to say good bye.

Stay beautifully you.

xox,

Kayla

beautifully imperfect

"I think I should put this here, and this here." I mumbled to myself.

I had been working on this project for years. Putting the best moments of my life, on this wall.

The picture I had clasped in my hands was the final touch.

If I could only find the right spot to place it.

I took a couple photographs off of the wall and placed them to the right.

How am I supposed to arrange these? 

I laid back onto my bed and looked at my memorabilia. That's what I would call it.

Resting my eyes, I brushed my hand over the picture I was holding. These were moments caught on film. A time of laughter and happiness. Not perfection, but beautifully imperfect.

Wait. That's the key.

I sprang up, and closed my eyes. With the picture in my hand I placed it on my wall.

"There." I said, opening my eyes. I had done it. It was beautifully imperfect.

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Hats off to you.

One day I am going to make a picture wall. The idea is beautiful. Having a wall full of your memories, captured in the moment. Not perfectly arranged but beautifully imperfect. 

An array of clutter that has meaning. Each piece an impact on your life.

Some times we feel like we are not worth it.

Or that we are no where near perfect.

Truth is? No one can be perfect, but can we not try and be beautifully imperfect?

Stay beautifully imperfect.

xoxo,

Kayla

today

It may be hard to take a chance, but If we try, in the end we just might find it worth the while.

Who is in love with this picture?

I for one have trouble with stepping out.

Showing love to those around.

Because I'm to scared to fail.

I normally just stick to the laid out trail.

Not bothering to go my own way.

But that is going to change, and I'm starting with today.

Today, I will step out and lead the way.

Today, I will help at my own pace.

Today, I will choose to do something new.

And leave a legend behind.

Show the world whats mine.

I can do it today.

If we all rely, on that voice that says we cant.

Will we even try, to change the way we live.

So just break out to your own way and give.

Live your life and make it count.

Show the world and live it out, today.

you can start today // step out

Stay beautifully in today.

xoxo, Kayla

                                                                                                            

books : divergent ( rant )

I did it. I finally read divergent! Okay, so I know this book came out like two years ago... But I didn't start hearing about it until two months ago. I absolutely love this book. Period. 

I believe if I go in to to much detail, I will probably give the whole story away... 

I also loved the fact that it was a longer book. I thought it would be around 300 pages, but It is 500 pages. Which meant I could read it in 4 hours instead of 2. It gives you more time to enjoy the book. I was so excited when I was reaching the end, and then I realized you basically have to read the second book to finish the story. 

I almost *sniff sniff* cried. :'-(

Anyways.. Back to my rant. :)

Some people said that the first part and middle part were boring. And that the main jest of the story started near the end... I disagree. I didn't find it boring at all.

Personally, I think, that all of the book matters. Because you get to know the characters better. 

Like Tobias. 0.o

I love when you figure out why they call him four.

I know this is wired.. But I liked the part where Tris is in stage two and Four figures out she is divergent.

I just love Tris. Plus her mom is epic! ( Read the end. ) Just saying.

I cried at the end ,when you know who dies, while trying to save her.

And when she has to kill.... I am stopping.. Because I am going to probably spoil the book..

Main point of this rant : This book is really good. I recommend it for 12 and up. Or 13.. depending on your handling and maturity. If you apply for that, read this book. :)

Ps. I could never be abnegation. Defiantly not. -.-

Stay beautifully divergent.

xoxo, kayla

A little bit about me.

I'm the type of person, that will be in my bedroom, in my own little world. I will be dancing to old Disney songs, and singing along at the top of my lungs.

This doesn't have much to do with this post.
I just adore the picture. <3

There is just something about when the weather gets cold,

the leaves start to fall, and you can pull out your boots, beanies, and sweaters.

I love waking up in the morning and pulling your blanket tighter around you, because its chilly.

Walking outside and crunching the leaves beneath your feet.

When you look out your window and see little white pieces of ice floating in the air.

I love having to pull out your think soft blankets, while sitting in a comfy chair, reading a book.

Making hot cocoa and drinking it before you study.

Photographing everything cozy.

I love when the roads ice over, and you can go 'ice skating' in your shoes.

The frost on the windows, making your ordinary world look magical.

The Christmas music that is constantly playing in my room.

Sledding on not even two inches on snow, and having to push yourself down the whole way.

I love snow storms, and anticipating Christmas.

I love driving through the mountains, where your surrounded by red, yellow, and orange.

I love when you rake the leaves into piles and jump in them.

When you come inside and your cheeks are red.

I know its weird to write this when its not even fall yet, but I am waiting for the frosty weather.

Even now I have Christmas music playing in my room. Is that weird? I guess not. Can it honestly be weird to do something you love?

Stay beautifully listening to Christmas music.

xxx Kayla

Invisible.

Am I invisible?
Waiting to be seen.
Am I invisible?
Your walking right through me.
And no matter how hard I try
people just keep passing by,
leaving me behind.
Do I look invisible?
If I got up off the ground, and shouted in your ear,
to let you know I'm here.
Would you see me?
Would you notice, if I tried.
To carry through the night, alone.
Am I invisible?
It takes strength to realize.
That we don't have to be seen to be alive.
People great and small, all have a purpose.
No matter what the call, we all have a dream.
It takes time, so I'm fine, with not being seen.
With not being seen, comes responsibility, to know that even if we feel alone. There is always someone who will be by our side. Helping, when we think were on our own. We are never truly Invisible.

                                            you are not Invisible // keep believing, you will achieve

Stay beautifully invisible.

xxx kayla

If I had a time machine

If I had a time machine.

I would go and change some things.

Go back in time and make it right.

Help the world, and make it bright.

If I had one day in a time machine.

I would go back and see.
 Every moment that we spent together.

The times we danced in the rainy weather.

And I would cherish the little things.

If I had a time machine.

If I had a time machine, I would go in time.

Make some things worth the climb.

Pick up every shining dime.

Let my words flow out in rhyme.

If I could go back in time.

If I had a time machine.

I'd look at things that were kept unseen.

Unleash a beauty unto the world.

Show a love and make a whirl

I would..

Savor every moment that we spent together.

The times we danced in the rainy weather.

I would cherish the little things.

The lesser ones that were kept unseen.

If I only had a time machine.

wish you had a time machine // go back and change some things

Stay beautifully melodic.

Xox. Kayla

Rambling about.... I don't know.

                                                                                                Crush- "Hey, hows it going?"

Me- "Umm... Urmachushmmm... Good. Y-you?"

*Quickly composes self."

Me- "I mean.. Hey, *Flips hair* I am great! You?"

Crush- "I have been okay. I just finished watching all the Lord of the rings movies."

Me- "Really? Lord of the rings? How about star wars?"

Crush- "Eh. Star wars is okay."

Me- "O-okay? W-w-what type of person are you? Star wars is a gift to the human race!"

Crush- *Nervously looks around* "Umm.. Okay?"

Me- *Realizes I am making him uncomfortable* "So.. Avengers?"

And people.

That is how I imagine my conversation going.

I have never watched Lord of the Rings, I will probably watch it in near future..
But for now, I am fine with my strange obsession to Star wars, Avengers, and Superman.

Of course... All my friends are like.

"Oh my gosh! Gollum!"

Okay... So I don't know who that is.. But they are constantly talking about Gollum and a ring..

But the ring is also like alive, or something... 

All I know.. Is that there is this like little troll, that looks like a shaved bear. 

Ps. Never look up shaved bear. You might possibly be scarred for life. 

*Sits in a corner, and starts uncontrollably shaking.*

Anyways, while they are obsessing over that, my friend and I are standing in a corner like loners because we are the only ones that are not talking about the hobbit.

Caitlin- "I adore batman."

Me- "Batman? He has like no real superpowers. Hes just a rich dude with some gadgets."

Caitlin- "H-how could you?"

Me- "Easy! Superman is amazing, because he actually has real powers."

Caitlin- "He might have powers, but he is not that cute."

Me- "How many ways can you insult me?"

Caitlin- "Well... I will admit, at least when he is saving the world he isn't a green, huge, monster."

Me- "I know right! Speaking of the hulk. Wasn't it hilarious when he threw Loki around in the Avengers?"

Caitlin- "I know right! He was totally epic."

And then we are friends again. Ba-bam.

We are weird like that.

And that makes us Epic!

Speaking on Epic..

I saw the movie epic, and it is really good. I was surprised.. It was actually better than I thought it would be.

I loved the three legged, one eyed dog. When he ran into the door. Priceless.

That my friends... Is the end of this very weird, awkward rambling.

I also have nothing against Lord of the Rings.
It's just not my thing.
How do you like my new design?

It was done by the amazing Anna!

Stay beautifully awkward.

Xox. Kayla

My perfectly 'normal' obsessions.

This topic has been on my heart for basically a couple of long wearisome minutes.
   Behold. My perfectly normal Obsessions!

      Star wars.

I love star wars. It is amazing. I will admit that when my dad wanted me to watch it I was like.
 "Oh. Great. Another one of those older movies, where you want to repeatedly walk into a pole."
Nope. It was amazing! Best mistake ever!
Yesterday, I was having a heart to heart talk with my friend about star wars.
Well.. She went straight out and told me she hated star wars. That hurt. Like a knife stabbing you in the chest. Like the good friend I am, I forgave her. But another problem arose, when we walked into Barnes and Nobles.
 She pointed to a table. "Oh, Look! That stupid star wars stuff you like."
Was it star wars? No. It was star trek. How. can. you. confuse the two!?
 ( Okay, I see how you could possibly confuse the two.. But I am rambling. Deal with it. XD )
I am 'obsessed' with Star Wars.

  Ugg boots and Beanies.

Last year when I begged for some ugg boots, I was blessed with their presence.
Lets just say that when I got them on December 18. I wore nothing else besides ugg boots,
until around April first. Except for the occasional ski boots and ice skating shoes.
No joke. I wore them in the snow, to ride bikes, to church, to Canada, to my friends house, to absolutely every where. I would have continued wearing them past April.. But it just so happens they 'disapeared'.
Only to be found last week, stuffed under a table, in the garage.

Another one of my obsessions are 'beanies. They. are. amazing!
 Actually.. If you want to know about my beanie.. Read this post!
It describes, Everything.
My beanie also randomly 'disapeared'.

The 39 clues.

I am obsessed with reading the 39 clues.
Which is weird seen as how I have only read the first book and half of the second.
I bought the first one, and read half of the second one at a book store.
They have the series at my library, but every time I go there the second book is gone.
I refuse to read the third book without reading the second.
That is against my human code. You. just. don't. do. that.
So I am stuck with memories of Amy and Dan, in the first book.

 Butter, chocolate, cheese, popcorn, and ketchup.

Okay, not all together.
 But these are my condiments. You will not find me eating meat without ketchup.
You will not find me eating bread without gallons of butter.
You will not find me eating anything without cheese.
You will not find me eating popcorn with out chocolate.
And last, but not least. I. Adore. Popcorn.

Butter is not a condiment, its a way of life.
                                  - Kayla Hubbard

Okay, so I slightly exaggerated here ^, but it explains how much I love butter. XD
You learned my deepest food cravings. Congratulations. *Shakes your hand.*

One direction.

I never liked one direction.. But now I started finding my self always singing their songs..
I then decided to read everything about them and listen to all their songs.
Now I guess I could call my self a directioner.
Plus, lets talk about Best Song Ever. Is it not the best song ever? Am I right?
I am just to 'punny'. XD

There you go. All the things I am 'obsessed' with. :)
 Sorry if it was boring.. I know its different from my normal post.. But I enjoyed writing this!
I was on a roll with rambling. Ha ha. :P What are your 'obsessions'?
 I hope you enjoyed this unusual post.

Stay beautifully obsessed.

                         Xox. Kayla

Happiness.

 There is a funny thing about happiness.
  Happiness can't be bought, but yet it can be given and stolen.
  A trinket that gets borrowed, but never given back.
The hard part is to find it, when your down and on the ground.
 When you haven't seen the light, 'cause there is darkness all around.
 One of the greatest things you can achieve, is to find happiness in 'unhappy' situations.
 If you are truly happy inside, you can give it out.
You can also obtain sadness from a person who is sad, but if your joyfulness is great inside, you can cause even the unhappy to be happy.
Send it to some one else. Like blowing a whisper across the room.
Find it, Give it out, share it, but also have it stolen.

Sometimes I struggle with being happy. I mean, for the most part I am a little blessing sent from god. ( Pfft. Not at all. ) There are just those times where your unhappy and you can't see a reason to be glad. Or when you are sad and you pity your self.  You have the choice whether to be happy or not in life. Its your decision, its your mind frame. When you set your mind to be sad. Why? Why do we actually choose to be down and in the ditch? Of course you will be in situations when its really hard to be happy, but if you try and ask god for help.. You can be happy in the darkest hours of your life.

“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.”
                        ―    Abraham Lincoln

                                              set your mind // be happy


 

Hello August.

hello august

I guess I will miss you July, but for some reason I have a longing for August.

The middle of Summer and Fall.

The beauty of hellos and good byes.

Wishpers of secrets and mysteries.

Good bye July, hello August. 

   I know this isn't the best.... But I just came up with a little something. I love August! It is one of my favorite months. So.. Happy August!!! :) 

                           

I can do this?

~ my dream ~


I can't do this.
Those were the words I kept telling myself, as I prepared myself to walk onto the stage.
I was being beat up. Mentally beat up.
A voice inside my head that kept telling me "You are never going to be able to do this, your going to fail."
I fiddled with my hands, and took a deep breath.
"You can do this, I believe in you." I heard a voice behind me whisper.
I tried to slow down my thoughts and rearrange them, to get my facts straight.
Whats the worst that could happen? I mess up, people stare at me, then I run to my room and become a hermit. Not that bad. Right?
"Are you almost ready?" The stage manager asked.
"Sure." I replied, almost whispering.
Don't mess up, don't mess up. Everybody is watching, if you mess up it will-
I decided to stop talking to myself, it could only make things worse.
"Please help me." I silently prayed, as I heard my name being called.
I slowly dragged myself up onto the platform, preparing myself to pass out.
I grabbed the mic and stared at all the eyes that were boring into my soul.
Closing my eyes, words started flowing out of my mouth.
My eyes opened.
I looked around and realized that I could do it. I can do it!
A sudden burst of confidence shot through me.
The crowd started clapping.
I walked off stage, feeling something I couldn't explain. I could do it.

      My biggest fear - People and Failing. Okay people, failing, and pain. People and failing work together though. Like getting up in front of people and doing some thing that you could mess up in. School, Music, Sports, and My life in general. It all consists of having a chance to fail in front of people. Basically I struggle with nerves. Honestly people never really bring me down. Its me. I bring my self down. I get so nervous, that I cause myself to mess up. I cause myself to miss an opportunity that I could have grasped. Its all because of me. That means that only I can push back all those voices and say. 'I can do it.' 

                                                       push back the voices // only believe

I am back!

Back? I didn't even know you were gone.
 Umm....
Awkward silence.

Yes. I was gone. Where to? Carowinds!
 You probably don't know what that is. It is a roller coaster park! And a water park! :)
One fact about me. I am afraid of roller coasters! Well.. I was afraid.
 I got over my fear when I forced myself on the biggest roller coaster in the southeast.
The Intimidator! *Dramatic music. Dun dun dunnnn!*
 Now I can say. "I'm a roller coaster person." *Me walking forward, with an explosion behind me!*
Want to know the best part? In the picture for the Intimidator. I had my arms up and I was smiling.
I AM EPIC! XD
 Not really.
Also a reason I have not been blogging.. Is because I am writing. Not like on here, but like a book ( in a way. ). I love to write, but I don't know much about writing. Any tips would be helpful. ;)

I am determined to post every day until school starts! With a few exceptions.
I have a lot of ideas and inspiration to write.. But I can never find the right words to type it in. Haha! :D
 Please follow THIS blog! She is absolutely Fantabulous! Because amazing is not fit for the Storyteller!
She is going to be revealing her name at 150 followers! She is so close to her goal!

Basically... That's it. My weirdness has come to an end. *Every body claps*

 Ps. I just realized how many times I used an exclamation mark!

out of reach

those things that seem so out of reach

out of our hands
out of our abilities
they take our dreams
to a whole new reality
its the laugh
its the smile
the way you make it seem like i've been happy for a while
your so out of reach
but so close to me
a whole new chapter of my life
an escape from all the stress and strife
if i just believe
i can see the beauty in the chaos of the world
its a whole new light
i try to strive
while every thing around me is a whirl wind
if i work hard
i can do the things that seem so out of reach
but i know they are not out of my abilities

If you keep on trying those things that were just dreams can become reality.

Don't ever tell your self you can't. It may seem out of reach, but its not out of your abilities. If you keep on going you will make it.

                                 

                                     keep on trying // its in your reach

invisible pain

I looked down at the little face that stared up at me.
"Why do we all hurt?" she asked.
"Its just a part of life.." I replied trying to answer the best I could.
"You don't look like you hurt." 
"Now that.. That's invisible pain."
"Invisible pain.. Whats that?" she said, with a curious look in her eyes.
"Invisible pain is when you hurt, but you choose to keep it to your self. Maybe so you don't bother other people, or maybe because you feel that its not important."
"Is it important?"
"All pain is important.. because it could hurt that person more then that same thing would hurt another.  Invisible pain hurts the worse, because you keep holding all the pain inside you and it just builds up."
"So why don't you just let it out?" she said smiling, because she had found the answer.
"Honestly I don't know.." I replied, thinking about the question that the little girl had asked.

I am the type of person who could be hurting emotionally and no one would know. Unless you read me very well, and even if someone knows.. I just try and brush it off like its no big deal. All pain matters. Even if its small, if you hold it in it can build to something bigger. It may seem like invisible pain, but its not invisible.

                                                     || Life updates ||

I found out I have laryngitis. Yup. That is something that was not on my bucket list.. My throat is on fire.
 My voice is practically a whisper, so when people can't hear me and I try to talk louder I sound like a braying donkey.. So I will be writing a little bit more that usual.. :) Because normally when I write, I write the way I talk.. With different tones for different sentences. That does make it confusing sometimes.. And now I can't even sing around the house or in the shower!!! Probably the worst part. Haha! :D Plus I can't laugh. Oh well.. At least I can laugh on the inside! LOL! XD Have a great laryngitis free day! :)

Kittens and updates.

sorry.. pictures of my kitten.

 Awesome updates:

   I named my kitten scribbles. I just felt like that fit. She is all over the place like a scribble!
  We took her to the vet and she is pretty healthy.
  Oh my word!!! I have 50 followers!!! I want to thank all of you so much.. I could have never gotten where I am with out you. <3
  I saw despicable me 2. Simply hilarious. ITS SO FLUFFY!!!! *Cough. back to business.*

Slightly devastating updates:

 I have a cold in the Summer. Ironic? -.-
Scribbles has a cat flu. she is sneezing and shivering like crazy.
EVERYBODY IS GETTING SICK!?!?! Umm.. caps lock?
Summer is halfway over.. Or half way started?

I know this is weird.. but I am honestly going t start school in like 2 weeks. By my own choice!
My sister thinks I am losing it... I am normally used to like a month of summer break, if that.
Having the whole summer off is killing me! No schedule. No order. No anything.
Don't get me wrong. I love summer!!! I just want to get back to school..... I have done a lot of stuff this summer! but I want something that I have to do every day instead of just 'going with the flow'.

 I guess that's enough rambling for now. :)
 Have a great day!

everyone has a story.

everyone has a story
 to share or to keep.
some choose to tell it to the world.
 while others keep it close and dear.
every one has a story
 whether great or small.
a story is a treasure 
 given to us by god.
its the way that we brighten up some ones life.
 through some words that speak of happiness.
its a gift that use for sad and dreary days.
 or save as a close memory.
basically a story is where we make a dream come true.
 through words.
taking people to other worlds
to long lost treasure
or a secret database.
its a thought or dream that makes its way
 to someones heart.
every one has a story.
 so why not tell yours, or save it for another time?
                        
                                           share your story // change a life

kitten.

Ever since I was little I have wanted a cat, but everyone on my family is allergic to them except me.
My sister has her dog, my mom has her chickens, and I had a little bit of thread as my pet. -.-
 Yesterday we went to go to mcdonalds.. Well.. We stoped by the kill shelter. I thought that we were just going to look at the price of a kitten.. No, we got one!! I officially have a cat! It was so hard to choose, because there were so many kittens in there crying and trying to get adopted. Just thinking about it makes me cry.. All the animals in there only have a week, and then *capust.* umm.. you know dead.
Its is so sad... I wish I could have gotten all of them in my arms, held them, petted them, and showed then that they are loved.. *sniffs, runs and grabs tissue.* Anyways.. I guess you could say I saved my kitten from death. *smiles.* :)
  Meet the newest member of our family! *Cough. Cough. My kitten.*

Isn't she adorable?
 I didn't get to many pictures.. Do you know how hard it is to get a kitten to stay still? Hard.
She is a tabby cat, and super rambunctious! but she also likes to just lay down in your lap and relax.
 I am having a super hard time deciding what to name her...
Here is what I have come up with so far.

truffles
sprinkles
waffles
skittles
marbles
scribbles

Okay, so most of them are food.. But come one they are cute!
 Which name do you like best? I need help! Do you have any name ideas?
I really like the ones sprinkles and scribbles! :)

don't wait to long.

i waited to long.
the door i longed to be open now was closed.
i never thought this day would come.
where my fear over came my intuition.
the opportunity was there.
it was so close i could grasp it.
but i could not bear.
the thought of failing or losing what i loved most.
i thought i could do it.
i thought i could practice every day.
so when the time came i was ready for what ever came my way.
but now the door that was open.
it has been shut.
just because i was afraid of a few scrapes or cuts.
an opportunity of soaring through the sky.
i could have done it.
but i was to afraid to try.
the chance now is gone.
i waited to long.

  I have had so many opportunity's where I could have done it, but I was to afraid to try. Does that ever happen to you? Or is it just me?
Me being afraid. waiting to long.
 There will be a time when my question Why? over comes my doubts and fears.
Why am I truly doing this? If that is strong enough then all the fears in the world can not move you.
Because you know within you that you have a god and you have a reason.
There will be times when there is not reason, and all you will have is a thread of faith.
But if you keep holding on to that one little bit of hope or faith.
You will succeed, because there is nothing that can stand against you.
You have a god who can pull you through anything.

                           

                          go through the door while its open  // you have a reason  // you have a god

always love.

always love.
be free.
don't let hate become your enemy.
let your love become your words.
let your words become your actions.
just love.
and dream.
soar and be free.
love.

                                                              always love // be free

Its the 4th.

the smiles

the laughs

the lights

the noise

the beauty

the freedom 

I look around trying to find a good place to sit before the fireworks start.

As I sit on the grass I start clutching my ears anxiously waiting for the first fire work.

"Psst. Why are you plugging your ears?"

    "Ugh. Do I have to go over this every time?"

"I guess so.."

"Okay, ever since I was little I have hatted loud noises. Especially fireworks."

"Oh, so you don't like fire works?"

"Did I say that? No. I love fire works! I hate the noise."

"Ah.. That makes sense."

I start to sigh.

'Boom'

I plug my ears harder. Its so beautiful.

A celebration of our freedom.

And array of lights for our country.

'Bam'

I try and see if its not that loud.

Unplugging my ears..

 'BOOM'

Okay that didn't work, I say to myself.

I sit in awe of the splendor that surrounds the sky.

After the fire works I race over and eat some cake.

I look around.

Little kids running with dangerous sparklers.

But yet its gorgeous.

I grab a sparkler and sit on the steps.

The sun has set.

The fire works are going on.

The cake is calling me.

Everything is so simple yet so complex.

Families laughing together.

Its the 4th.

embrace the light // behold the boom

I dream.

I dream.. For sunny days. crashing waves upon a sandy shore.

 Of laughs and love. Dreams, Smiles, and hugs. 

I wish.. For longer days and shorter nights. So the people that

are left there crying will see light.

I want.. World wide peace. But I believe that starts with me..

 Making a change in my life.

I dream.. That we are all a puzzle piece. with out one the puzzle is not complete.

I wish.. Of daises swaying in the breeze. A sweet little melody.

I want.. A moment of peace and serenity. So that my heart can fully fly free.

I dream.. For lovely years, filled with you right here. By my side.

 Of happiness sent in a little box. A trinket of my heart that's lost to you.

And I just want to let you know. That I have not forgotten. The way you showed

me more of life. More of hope. More of me.

I believe.. that dreams can be full filled, if we try to love, try to learn. That we all have a will to dream. So let your thoughts become your words, and your words become you actions. Let your life be a living example of who you are inside. 

    I know this doesn't make sense.. But its a jumble of words that mean something to me.

             dream on // live your life <3

I see.. July.

I see..

 fireworks.

laughter.

families together.

around a bonfire.

I see..

 swimming and cookouts.

 park trips and luaus.

sprinklers.

ice cream.

friendships and lots of sweets

I see..

 late nights.

followed by big surprise.

camping trips in side your living room.

looking at the stars.

picnics. and sunburns.

trampolines and life turns.

as your half way through summer

I see..

 sweet good byes.

a bunch of board games and sleeping outside

fireflies.

teasing us to catch them with there bright lights.

taking a couple breaths of your lovely life.

I see..

 vacations with families.

 great get togethers.

 taking a chance on the weather.

I see..

 hugs.

 and kisses too.

 as the worlds trying to tell you that you are loved.

 you've got all this time.

 so make it right.

live like its the last day of your life.

I see..

 July.

Happy canada day! :)

Paddle boating. Rambling.

The sky above me.

The water below.

Making ripples around me.

The breeze blowing through my hair.

I spent the day paddle boating..

It was really nice.

I mean.... It gave you quite the work out.... 

Working hard to go a short distance but in the end its worth it.

Kind of like life. It takes a lot to go short distance.

But the reward in the end is absolutely amazing.

Like making sacrifices for other people.

Even though you give something up you love.

To see the smile on their face makes it worth it all.

I guess that's enough rambling..

Have a great weekend!

You.

Your words. The beauty of a feeling spoken. Trying to change the world. One word at a time.
Your words. The awe of how you make it seem so easy. To show how you care.
Your words. I'm amazed at the way you lift me up. When I am struck down. You carry me. 
You. Help me through the night. When I was lost. and I didn't want to live in another tomorrow.
You. Made me laugh. When I. Was caught up in my darkened past. How you strive to make everybody happy.
Your words. Are a sweet forgotten memory. A chime that rings in a gentle breeze.
     I will always remember you.

The people in your life that make you feel special. The friends that make you smile when you are determined to stay unhappy. The people that make you wish this moment would never end. That help you be You. <3