16.10.13

Try and see the best



I often find myself surrounded by my own little world, building up ideas to shield me from the truth, getting my self ready for whats to come. Sometimes I could talk to myself for hours; rehearsing line after line, to prepare the words I say. I try to save myself from disappointment and failure. But after I have shed my tears, spent nights awake, and vented out my heart; I finally come to the realization that life happens. No matter what I do to protect myself, people will still push me down. I can't control what happens, and that's how it is.
My friend kinda told me that. She said that we will always disappoint people, and that's life. When she said that I just replied, well life sucks. Which is true, because we will always disappoint people. 
Something that I hate doing. If I feel like I hurt someone, let them down, or disappointed them. I will lie awake in bed, not letting sleep over take me. I go over that moment in my head, until I have perfected it.
Unfortunately, I will probably always disappoint people. The important thing is for me to let it go, for me not to spend hours correcting my mistake. Life is life. You can't always be ready for it, you can't fix the past, you can't control it. Things will happen whether you like it or not. You just have to find the strength to make it through. You don't have to be happy and joyful, but you should try and see the beautiful things in life.
Because through the clouds, through the rain, there is a rainbow.

“Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.” 
― Allen Saunders

“Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late. You don't have to like it... it's just easier if you do.” 
 ― Byron Katie

Stay beautifully seeing the best in life.
xoxo,
Kayla



3.10.13

Super hero


I don't have a power or any super plan.
I can't fight off villains in hopes to hold your hand.
But I would try, to keep your head held high.
To help you understand.
That what ever comes this way, I'll be there by your side.

I don't own a light saber, or a super cool machine.
I don't have a Darth Vader to say "You don't know what I've seen."
But I would cross a bunch of galaxies, with you, in my dreams
Just to see you smile, 'cause for you I would do anything.

And I want you to know.
That I would fight off bad guys, if it came to that.
I would spread my wings and fly, to the moon and back, if I could.
Just to let you know.
 That for you I'd be a super hero.

//You may be no one special, but to someone your their superhero.//

 I know this poem song thingy is cheesy.. And the picture has nothing to do with the post, but these words kinda mean something to me. Like my love for super hero's and star wars.. *Cough cough*  And the fact that, even though I am no one special, maybe I could be a hero. :) Because there is always someone who needs a 'hero' to help them, so why don't you be that person and become a 'hero' to somebody. :)

Stay beautifully being somebodies super hero.
xoxo,
Kayla

1.10.13

this is to october


This is to October, were leaving September behind.
To a hope that this month will be better than the last.
And a longing in our hearts for the days that will pass.
This is to the cooler months, for the wind the rain and shine.
A love for the Autumn leaves.
And the cool gentle fall breeze.
This is for the laughs we will have.
The tears that will come our way.
The times that we feel like we are on top of the world.
And we couldn't have a better day.
This is for memory's and fires aglow.
For the wishing and longing for the white kiss of snow.
This is for knowing that we have a month.
To continue to laugh and continue to love.

To say that I love the Autumn, is an understatement. Because the fall is my favorite season, apart from winter that is. 
You can pull on your sweaters and boots, and just walk outside with the cool fall air. That to me, is basically perfect.
Am I the only one that will go out of my way to crunch leaves that haven't been stepped on. Yup, I do that a lot. I am just walking down the road and I see a perfect orange leaf. Next thing you know I am 'randomly' going to the side and taking special care to crunch that leaf. I have no self control in that situation.
Stay waiting for leaves to fall.
xoxo,
Kayla