you are my high and low

I kind of force my friend to model for me because she is absolutely beautiful.

Everyone has highs and lows,

but not everyone has self control.

The ability to hold yourself together

isn't something that's always remembered.

Because you can forget who you are,

and start to fall back into the dark.

Not able to push past the barrier.

Failing to see that things will get better.

Its something simple,

yet you're stuck trying to figure it out.

Good luck, because I'm still confused and surrounded by doubt.

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My mood tends to differ from the people around me. It's like this unfortunate thing that I am unhappy when people are happy, and happy when people are unhappy. I think it might be this inner jealousy inside me that is always measuring my happiness against others. Or maybe it's just that time of month.

Who knows.

All I know is that currently I have been over thinking and stressing the small insignificant things, and it is probably the most annoying thing I could put myself through.

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Her lame blog is right here.

When you visit her blog, take a minute to appreciate the url, courtesy of muah.

I love you guys! Thank you so much for following me and for commenting. You have no idea how much it means to me!

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current favorites - music, books, tv, ect.

I have never actually done one of these before, but since my favorites are obviously so important I figured I might share them with you all.

books

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone

I have always loved the world of Harry Potter, like the movie series makes it into my top three series of all time. I am completely obsessed with Harry Potter. Having watched the movies countless times, quoted it constantly, and even patiently waited for my Hogwarts letter. So how in the world had I never read the a single Harry Potter book? I have no explanation, except for that my life hasn't been complete until I completed this book.

Star Wars: Lost Stars

Oh my word. This book was so good that thinking about it makes me want to re-read it over and over again. Just yes.

Cinder ( The Lunar Chronicles )

I have not yet read the other books in the series but I am definitely going to. The book lacked a few things, but the basic plot and story were really good! I loved it so much! It's definitely one of my favorites.

To All the Boys I've Loved Before/P.S. I Still Love You

I would just like to point out that I did really like this book, a lot. It wasn't terrible, but I wouldn't say it was my favorite. It had so many good elements, and then there was the fact that I got annoyed by the characters. They were really cute books though!

music

I have an extremely broad music taste, I guess, but I just can't help it. Music is such a flipping big part in my life! There are so many songs, artists, bands, and such little time. Honestly, I could write a small paragraph of why I love each of the following songs, but that would take forever, so why don't you listen to a few and decided if you like them as well!
And yes, even the two K-pop songs. Hey! You never know unless you try, right?

food

Pocky

brief summary - a heavenly cookie biscuit thing covered with the worlds most creamy mind blowing chocolate you will ever taste
It doesn't look like much, but one taste and your whole world will change. Please, if you have never tried it, buy a box right now. I am 99,9% sure you will be blown away.

The Tonight Dough
brief summary - ice cream with a punny name and Jimmy Fallon's face on it
Need I say more?

entertainment

One Punch Man

This is an anime, and I actually don't know if any of you guys like anime so I am always a little unsure if I should talk about it or not? Because I have heard MANY different views on anime, some of which include judging the person who watches it. Awkward.

Any who, this anime is a comedy, action, and parody anime which is so entertaining I don't know where to begin. Basically this guy is so overpowered that he can wipe out any enemy with one punch. He becomes a hero and he literally looks like an egg.

No, really. I absolutely love it. Its so refreshing, as far as anime goes, and I love how it goes from being utterly stupid to making me cry. Guys, I am not kidding, this is life.

Gotham

This show completes me! I started off not thinking I would like it, and I thought it might get a little too dark. Truth is, it is pretty dark compared to The Flash and other shows, but that is what makes me like it so much! I really like seeing the characters and their origins, especially Nygma. I feel for him on so many levels, its not even funny.

Sherlock

Have you guys seen the new episode? It is fantastic! I was so happy to see all the characters again after the hated hiatus between seasons. I won't say any more in order to avoid spoilers, but seriously. Just watch it.

Okay, I need to finish this before the list becomes endless.

This post was new territory for me, but I hope y'all didn't hate it too much! *nervous chuckle*
Let me know what your current favorites are, as I always love finding new things to obsess over!
And dude, if you like any of the things I mentioned, comment and I will rant with you. I'm not even kidding.

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i quite value my breath

she goes down to the basement

holding a box which contains broken parts

a box representing her broken heart

she places the box on the cracked cement
this box which she vows to never open again
and then
she ascends back up the crooked stairs
leaving this box to collect the dust in the air

in the box is the entirety of her past
she does this in an attempt to forget the people in those photographs ever existed
but she knows that this momentary courage to remove the memories wont last

she might eventually want to remember
to run her fingers over the words and images
the times that she secretly treasures

this box is her escape
once it is closed only she can choose to open it
but she can also choose to run away

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Well hi there. This was a lame attempt to try and write something until I get a better idea. In order to make this even more lame, would you like to hear my favorite pickup line at the moment? I think you do.

I value my breath so it would be nice if you didn't take it away every time you walked by.

So, I am currently trying to update my 'about me' page and oh my word its so difficult. I can't decide whether to do a bullet list or if I should go into detail about my popcorn addiction and the amount of times I have watched Sherlock. I am half joking. #thestruggleisreal

If you guys have any tips or ideas I would be eternally grateful, as I have a terrible habit of turning any simple writing task into a novel.

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in which it snowed

ahaha trying to be dramatic

yer a wizard harry

the picture before i became a quitter and went inside to avoid frostbite

I don't exactly know who, if anyone, still exists on here. So in order to reduce the awkward introduction/summary of what I have been doing in the past year, I will save that for a future post and just skip it for now.

It snowed, as you can probably tell from the pictures, and it was fantastic! To say I was incredibly flipping excited is an understatement. After having a winter that feels like you are in a tropical forest and a Christmas in which I could have jumped into a lake and not even considered the possibility of hypothermia, I started to believe that I was going to have a cold less, snow less winter. Who in the world wants a winter without the feeling of icy air hitting your cheeks and snowflakes falling gently on your skin? Definitely not me, so patiently I waited for the day where I could officially start winter and embrace the cold. That was today. It is now winter and I am now content to continue on with 2016.

In celebration of it being below freezing, I forced my sister to participate in a not so professional photo shoot. Shout out to her for wearing a Dino onesie and criticizing my smile, I couldn't have done it without her.

There is just something about the snow, ya know? Everything becomes 100x more incredible, and even the things that were not particularly spectacular before become breath taking. It kinda makes the ordinary a little bit more magical. I don't exactly know how, as it is only frozen water. But it is frozen water that I love and adore with a deep passion to which I can't even put into words.

I have to admit though, despite all the obviously deep reasons why I am passionate about the snow, getting out of school was pretty great. The only thing that I don't miss about home school was having to do school when it snowed. At least now I have a valid excuse to skip out on assignments and be lazy. Hooray.

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I apologize for this terribly messed up and rather sporadic post, it is getting late and I think my bed is calling my name. In fact this whole thing was a spur of the moment sort of ordeal. I rather liked it though. I hope to do this again very soon in the future.

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last note:

Has it snowed for any of you guys? Are you as obsessed with the cold as I am? Or are you more of a warm rays of sunshine sort of babe.

signing out

kayla

r e s o l u t i o n s

pretend this photo is deep and pretend it has something to do with this post

I had a bunch of new years resolutions. A whole bucket full. They went something like this.

be healthy
be positive
stop over thinking
take more photos
love more

You get the idea, well basically I failed. No really. On the first day I had two donuts for breakfast, I haven't taken a single photo cause I am too lazy to find my camera charger, my positivity is normal, I have over thought myself into a crater, and I still dislike most people.

my new years resolutions

I have officially decided that I am doing new years resolutions wrong. I just write a list and it ends up being buried under my lack of will power to actually do them. To go against my will power, I am just going to slowly work towards my resolutions. In order to be healthy, I will choose to drink more water and maybe eat some fruit instead of a brownie, or dark chocolate instead of the perfect, milky, heaven blessed Hershey. Little steps like that. If I don't complete my new years resolutions it doesn't mean I failed, it just means that there were more important things I needed to accomplish. Even if I feel like I have done nothing, its not nothing. Just because I don't accomplish what I want to accomplish, doesn't mean I haven't accomplished what I need to accomplish.

xxx

I wrote this two days after new years, and totally forgot about it.
I have had no time to write any posts, because I have two weeks of school to do this week since I missed last week. I am so overjoyed. Sorry for this filler post.
Oh well.
To end this how about a pickup line? No?
Pfft you really thought I would listen to someone telling me they don't want to hear a corny pickup line. Haha never.

If you were a fruit you'd be a
fineapple

❤
do not click this

xxx