i b r e a t h e

i don't even like tea, but i have not downloaded my photos yet, and i like taking photos of tea

I'm back

'ello

You may or may not have noticed that I have been gone. Yeah, I have basically neglected this blog for a whole year. I posted a little bit here and there, but nothing serious.

I have so been wanting to post, but every time I go to write a post, I never actually post it. I was always worried about whether it was good enough or not.

I realized though that I have to enjoy blogging. I have to blog for myself, at the same time I am blogging for you. It has to be a outlet for me, not something I feel pressured to do. I want to blog for you guys, because I enjoy blogging.

I have really wanted to come back, I just have problems with writing posts after being gone for so long. #sorrynotsorry

Anyways, I made a little survey, that I would love if you filled it out.

It would give ideas of what content you guys like best, so that I have a good idea of what to post.

{ Its at the bottom of this post. }

blog change

My blog is a little bit different than before.

I changed the name from Laugh an' Love to i breathe.

Now the name might not be super special or super significant, but it means something to me.

I often worry myself into a never ending roller coaster. My whole entire mind and body goes on overdrive, even if I know there is nothing to worry about. I am working to overcome my anxiety, and the first step is to make sure I breathe.

Sometimes you just have to take it one breath at a time, when you are sinking you have to breath, even if you take in water. Because its either you pushing through the waves, or you drowning in the sea of your own thoughts and anxiety.

I named this blog i breathe, because its a reminder to me. A reminder that I do breathe, and that I need to keep on breathing.

Also, I got it redesigned by the lovely Rose. She did an amazing job!

latley

On a totally different note.

I have recently started watching anime. Anime films, anime shows, I even read a manga. { Which was so much better than the anime. }

My absolute favorite so far is Miyazaki films. Oh my word that man is a genius. I cried in Castle in  the Sky, which isn't surprising, because I cry in everything. It was just so good. My favorite out of every anime movie I have seen, would have to be Howls Moving Castle. I honestly do not understand how my life was okay with out it. I love the artwork, and the characters are amazing. Especially howl. You should definitely watch it, if you have not already seen it. I am slightly obsessed with it, as I have already seen it about five times.

I guess I will fade off into the shadows now. I just wanted to tell you guys that I am back. For good. No hopefullys or maybes, I am back for sure.

I will have a posting schedule for the next post, I might not follow it exactly but it would give me some organization. Seen as how I am so organized, haha not.

Fill out my survey?

do not click this

I have got reverse Psychology down.

♥

xxx

kayla elizabeth

can i check your pockets?

am i squinting enough?

act natural.

leaf throwing determination.

best friends for infinity and beyond

∞∞∞∞∞

your just a girl

with an incredible personality

your just a girl

who laughs constantly

and maybe that seems insignificant

but its not

because every 3 a.m conversation means the world to me

every awesome awkward social outing opens my eyes to see

that you don't need to worry about pleasing the world

you don't need to be amazing to society

because we are extraordinary in the most awkward quirky way

and who cares if people don't understand

because we do

and i feel so incredibly blessed to be able to say that your my best friend
you are the most amazing best friend

∞∞∞∞∞
I'm alive? Hahahahayeshahahaha.
I am now going to present to you a cheesy pick-up line.
♥
Can I check your pockets?
'Cause I think you stole my heart.
♥

xxx

stay awkward

fall favorites

Fall favorites

 

Big over sized sweaters. 

Floppy sleeves are the best, you can sweetly slap people with your sleeves of terror.

Combat boots.

I love combat boots and floral boots. Its a slight obsession.

Pumpkin spice Hot cocoa.

You thought I was going to say coffee, didn't you? I absolutely despise coffee. I was feeling left out when I would go to Starbucks and order water in a coffee cup. *shh its a secret, people think i am drinking coffee* I found out though, that you can ask for Hot cocoa with pumpkin spice in it. Its so amazing.

Pumpkin pie.

Sometimes I add some pumpkin pie to my whipped cream. Just sometimes.

Christmas music.

Michael Bublé and Piano guys. All day everyday

Beanies.

I have an undying love for warm cozy beanies. I basically always wear a beanie, so I can feel the coziness of it as it caresses my head in utmost perfectency.

Pumpkin carving.

I adore carving pumpkins.

Pumpkin candles.

I always have one burning. I think I have stocked up on too many, there is basically a candle on every flat surface in my room.

Bonfires.

As if there is something more Autunmy than that.

Leaves.

Raking them, jumping in them, going out of your way to crunch them, catching them as they fall, pressing them, and watching them glide down towards the ground. Is there anything better?

Chilly weather.

Excuse me? Did you just say you hate the cold? Give me a minute while I flop out my sweater sleeves, straighten my winter hat, put on my boots, blow out my candle, take a sip of hot cocoa, place my book gently on my fuzzy blanket, grab my sonic screw driver and go all Jackie Chan on you.

Thanksgiving.

A holiday that celebrates giving thanks while I'm stuffing my face with rolls? Yes please.

Long walks.

Because walking without dying of heat, is just my cup of tea.

***

I guess that's it.

Autumn is perfect.

For now, enjoy this Pusheen gif.

The cutest epitome of my idea of fall.

Whats your favorite thing about fall?

Also, here is my favorite corny joke at the moment. { Pun totally intended. }

What did the tree say to autumn? 

leaf me alone. 

xxx

kayla

∞ thoughts ∞

I was so busy worrying about what you would think.

I was struggling to swim, so I started to sink.

Maybe those words you said hurt.

Maybe its just me.

Because no one ever seems to mess up, or maybe I am just to blind to see.

***
I know I keep disappearing, but I will probably only blog when ever I feel like it.
#sorrynotsorry
☺
How about this fall weather though?
I enjoy Autumn so much! Fall and winter are my favorite seasons. I actually am not quite fond of hot weather. I would much prefer to be cold, and be able to layer with sweaters and beanies. I was wearing fall clothes in the middle of Summer. At least now people don't look at me like I'm crazy.
Also. Christmas music is life. Its never to early for Christmas music.
Movie soundtracks also. They never get old.
Have you ever heard secrets by One Republic? Well that song is on repeat and I don't think its ever going off.

The little poem thingy that I wrote up there is basically a jumble of my thoughts. I thought I might keep this up. Ya know? I could write a summary of my thoughts of lately in a little poem or something? I don't know.

***
Love ya guys.
Stay sassy { and salty }
Inside jokes. Ahh.
xxx

random appology

me failing at the hair flip. oops.

I would like to start by apologizing for disappearing.

je suis désolée

^That means I'm sorry in french.^

I figured if I apologized in style, then its all good.

***

A lot happened while I was away. Of course nothing that you would necessarily care about, but I'm telling you anyways.

• I happened to drive 3,000 miles across the United States. No biggie.
• I went to Yellowstone national park. Like wha?
• I saw Crazy horse and Mount Rushmore.
• I went to the top of the gateway arch.
• I went through the badlands.
• I saw my very first tumble weed. { Yes. That is a very big deal. }
• I was officially announced a Disney princess, when I had Colombian ground squirrels eat cheese-its out of my hand. That's right. Now I am just waiting for perfect hair.
• I went paddle boarding in the Pacific ocean.
• I jumped off of cliffs into a mountain lake.
• I saw my cousin for the first time. He is so adorable.
• I saw Shawn Spencer's dads house. In person! I even went to where the Psych office was! It was filmed all around White rock, Canada. I was so happy.
• I went to a Brandon Heath concert. It was amazing! He sung even better in person!
• I went kayaking.
• I went to camp

That is all that my brain can remember right now.

At the end of summer I will do a post of what I completed off of my bucket list.

How have you guys been? :D

Have you guys been watching season 8 of Doctor who? I actually like Peter Capaldi, a lot! I am a little disappointed with the plot and the way its written, but I am still really enjoying it.

I honestly have so much to say, but I am going to leave that for my next post. :) Which Is going to be this weekend. 

Yes. I know I disappeared for a while. Its one of my many talents. *poof* I have just been terribly busy, with my summer vacation and... Wait for it...

*drum roll*

I started High school! Its kind of exciting. Once I push back the mountain of work they give you, I think I can see a little glimpse of sunshine. Or is that my pencil glistening? I don't know.

You get my point though. I have had loads of work. That is actually what I should be doing right now, so I am going to skedaddle.

*chuckles because I used the word skidaddle*

isn't this gif perfect?

xoxo. Kayla

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